Why?

They say I’m always happy

It’s weird for me to cry

They say I make everyone smile

It’s weird for me to cry

They say they seldom see me sad

It’s weird for me to cry

They say I’m not meant to cry

It’s weird for me to cry

They say…

They are the reason the one thing I ever wish for is solitude

They call me an introvert

They try to push me to places I don’t want to be in

They do everything in their power to make me feel involved

Why? I ask,

Is there some law I missed?

Or some guideline stating how I should act

Which I forgot to read?

What is it that I don’t know?

Which makes crying illegal for me?

Why do they have to control how I live my life?

Don’t speak

Don’t write

Don’t act

Don’t think

Why is it that after scoring 90% for 18 years of my life they are still disappointed?

What do they even want?

It is still a mystery for me

But until I breathe

Until there is sand in my hourglass

I must abide by their laws

I must go out

I must socialize

I must talk

Why is it that out of all the civilizations,

On all the planets

In all the universes

We are the ones so desperate to talk to one another?

Why can’t we just stay in silence and let people be themselves

They say I make everyone happy

Why is it weird if I try to be happy for once?