From Stranger To Stranger

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My hands are shaking as I write this.

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This letter obviously cannot contain all that I've felt about you all these years, and it cannot contain everything. But here goes nothing.

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I. There are so many things I wanted to say to your face, but I can't. Why can't I just tell you? Because I'll probably slur my world or fail badly. But anyway, yes I like you, yes you might know about this or have absolutely no clue. But I really had to say it to your face. I wish this was sooner than later, but I still think it's worth a shot. I know you are learning and that left me no option, I had to do it or live with a regret my entire life of 'What if?’s, So there you go and there goes my feeling.

III. I don't know you very well, which is kind of great because it allows me to turn wild with my imagination. Maybe you are this amazing person I was missing all my life, or maybe you are this raging jerk. I really have no idea. I like not knowing. It lets me create a pretty picture of you. You're just sitting there being cute and 'crush-worthy' not even aware of the joy you've been giving me. If you knew, then maybe you'd realize you feel the same about me.

G. I don't know what is it about you that pulls me so much. There's no doubt that I like you, but I really don't know why. I wish I could've muster up the courage and asked you out sometime, but then the situations were never in my favor. I really hate the feeling of butterflies in my stomach as my heart skips a beat when you come in front of me. It's not just butterflies, it's the entire damn zoo.

I wish I could wake up with amnesia and forget about the sweet little things that you do. I wouldn't have to worry about missing you. The feeling in my chest might give it a rest, and maybe I could walk away with ease as you do.

I wish you all the very best for your future endeavors, and I hope you become really successful in life. I hope that we do cross paths at some point in life and this would just pass about as a cute, innocent memory, and we will probably laugh about it.

Your 'not so secret admirer anymore'

XoXo