(In)sanity?

I have my stars with me

All secured in the 2 million pixels

Illuminated individually, in red, green, and blue

They've stopped twinkling though

They lost their essence, their sense of being

Cameras do capture souls

I sit here looking at this screen

This beautiful world in 16:9 ratio

Yet somehow I can't feel connected

I lost my way in my own world

And this new one won't accept me

I stay here on the edge of sanity

Like Alice looking through the glass

My life, in front of my own eyes, just splitting apart

I stare, and I stare,

At these beautiful combinations of 16 million colors

Each slightly different than the other

I see people on the other side too

Living their lives, moving ahead in time

Leaving their souls, in the forms of reels and posts, behind

People who are there, people who I know

But somehow they feel strangers to me,

Somehow I don't know

I pick up my cracked screen

I slide my thumb through the broken glass

The screen suddenly looks slightly reddish in color

Before I could realize I'd cut my thumb

And it felt nice, to feel something, other than just numb

I look at the blood

It reminds me of you

It reminds me of a million things actually

But the first thought was you

You're not related in any way

But still, I think of you

I scroll and scroll through my profile

I see the photo, the piece of my soul, that I left for exile

For all the RGB present

And for all the 16 million colors

The photo just had black and white

It was just you and me

And a dark sky full of a starry night

Like milky way, only twice as bright

I look at it and I let myself be free

For I have them secured in 2 million pixels

I have all my stars with me.